today went to town area to celebrate felix birthday , milk, qian yi and i went to decorate the cake for felix. its our first attempt , and we fail quite badly actually. went to ps to play arcacde . den i saw her . haiz . seeing her made me suddenly felt lost. we lyk total stranger , really dun noe wad i had done wrong to make her behave this ways. maybe fate wanna to fool me ba. i kept thinking if u really accept me will i be the same after my tagging drop . tat the reason tat kept me holding back cause i felt tat u too innocent le and i really dun wanna to hurt u. the moment she tell me to dun waste tym on her , i had a feeling tat i nv hab b4. sadness that couldn't imgaine. i jus wanna to have a simple r/s but it seem impossible . i think the reason lies with me ba , to xxxx xxxx , actually jus nw u ask me that question i already noe ur feeling le , in the past even though we quarrel but i nv believe tat u will leave one day. i noe waiting for a person for 18 mth is nt a easy thing so i nv blame u.everytime we talk about the past , it seem lyk we are back to where we are. i nv regret loving u. it nt tat i always talk about my ex den didn't mention u , the truth is i dunnoe hw to mention u in front of u. maybe since i am out i been running away from the problem even knowing ur feeling toward me.sorry cause i really don know wad to do and how to face it. cause myself is in a colourless world . but no matter wad our memories will stay with us forever as u say we hab a endless story and that the best way to keep us from hurting .and nw i already move on so i hope u can move on too. no matter wad u still my best friend .
now is already three plus and i can feel my tiredness but i really cannot slp kept thinking of her , hope she will know how to take care of urself. zhu .nite everyone . hamster jia li , is ur day muz be happy. no matter wad we will still be here for u. HAAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!
